The word surreal seems to be the most appropriate word to describe how I feel.
It feels like I've been in a time warp since the day we arrived to care for mom on her last days of life.
On Saturday I knew she was getting close. Her body began showing signs of shutting down, signs I was only certain of due to my job.
Saturday night my step dad was able to keep her really comfortable and slept through the night. When I arrived on Sunday morning I gave her dose of medicine then sat with her. Her breathing shifted and was began to concern me. I was unable to tell if she was struggling or was relaxed. As her breathing shifting I held her hand and told her I loved her and Ryan and Valierie were on their way back.
Moments after her breathing slowed down, it was quiet and almost peaceful. She didn't seem as though she was struggling. Moments after that she took her last breath.
I was with my mom as she took her last breath. Matthew was by my side, my sister, step dad and grandmother were all by her side within moments. That moment is something I will forever remember, the moment as life faded from her body.
As a family we've spent the last few days looking through her belongings, photographs, poems and writings our mother has gathered. We've been able to laugh, cry and remember moments of happiness and sadness realizing she is no longer experiencing these moments with us.
Today in Arizona we will be celebrating her life within a community who considered her family.
These past few days have been rough. I feel grateful for all the support we've been shown and how many wonderful stories and kind words that have been shared about my mother. Everyone saw her kindness and the joy in her eyes.
I believe she left the legacy she had always dreamt of leaving.
As for now I'm trying to stay Steady In Hope.
Kelly
It feels like I've been in a time warp since the day we arrived to care for mom on her last days of life.
On Saturday I knew she was getting close. Her body began showing signs of shutting down, signs I was only certain of due to my job.
Saturday night my step dad was able to keep her really comfortable and slept through the night. When I arrived on Sunday morning I gave her dose of medicine then sat with her. Her breathing shifted and was began to concern me. I was unable to tell if she was struggling or was relaxed. As her breathing shifting I held her hand and told her I loved her and Ryan and Valierie were on their way back.
Moments after her breathing slowed down, it was quiet and almost peaceful. She didn't seem as though she was struggling. Moments after that she took her last breath.
I was with my mom as she took her last breath. Matthew was by my side, my sister, step dad and grandmother were all by her side within moments. That moment is something I will forever remember, the moment as life faded from her body.
As a family we've spent the last few days looking through her belongings, photographs, poems and writings our mother has gathered. We've been able to laugh, cry and remember moments of happiness and sadness realizing she is no longer experiencing these moments with us.
Today in Arizona we will be celebrating her life within a community who considered her family.
These past few days have been rough. I feel grateful for all the support we've been shown and how many wonderful stories and kind words that have been shared about my mother. Everyone saw her kindness and the joy in her eyes.
I believe she left the legacy she had always dreamt of leaving.
As for now I'm trying to stay Steady In Hope.
Kelly