As time continues to pass the initial shock of my mother’s situation as subsided some. I continue to struggle with focusing on the positive and being present in the moments we have together.
Today is Mother’s Day and the struggle continues. I can’t help but think…is this the last mother’s day we will have together? I know there is more I can say about this but I cannot seem to gather the words…
It’s like being on a see-saw teeter-tottering between the reality of time we’ve been presented with and the place I want to be, of being in the moment, the place of not focusing too heavily on moments but simply just being present. This upcoming week I’ve decided to put an active effort to being in the moment, to be present.
Tomorrow Matt and I will set out on the open road to Florida. My uncle and aunt have graciously rented a beach house and invited some of the family to come stay. My mother was in Texas for few days visiting her parents and now her and my brother, Ryan are on their way to Florida, taking a put stop in New Orleans.
We will be spending a time together at the beach, in nature with the waves, sun and sand. I have been longing for time to connect back to the earth since this roller coaster began and I hope this fulfills that need. There is something about being in nature that grounds me, reminding me that I am only a small factor in this universe. I’m beyond excited to take a break from work to spend time with my mother, brother and boyfriend and to take a moment in nature to just breath, taking it all in.
I want to thank those of you who have contributed to the out pour of support my brother and I continue to receive through our Go Fund Me account and random “thinking of you” texts. It is all so appreciated. I want to specifically say thank you to Crossfit FCH for all the love and support you have showed our family. Yesterday Ryan designed a workout in honor of mom. The amount of reps for each move were connected to our birthdays; ages or years mom has been fighting cancer. I was genuinely touched by each your participation and kind words you gave to my mom. Thanks again for encouraging us to start the Go Fund Me Account, I’m not sure Ryan and I would of done it without you. Here is the link to the FB page, some images were posted of the workout https://www.facebook.com/CrossFitFCH
Ryan and I are able to go on this trip to Florida not stressing about money or feeling guilty about having fun. We know we will be able to enjoy ourselves and know when the need to fly to Arizona on a moments notice we will be able too. That brings so much comfort to us.
So…Happy Mother’s Day, cherish every moment you have together because we never know what is next
I hope I can be present in the moments
I hope this trip to Florida will be wonderful
I hope one day cancer is cured
Kelly Marie
Mom and Ryan this morning in New Orlean's!